As I was driving home from Adoration this a.m., I could not dismiss the memory that just 8 hrs before this Hour, I sat in His Presence not at peace, not adoring Him – but angry. I wish I could say I was simply distracted, perplexed, frustrated, or even irritated. But, No, I was angry. How could that possibly be?
Why? Because I put myself over Him and others while forgetting one of the last lines of my speech about Adoration: “Yes, there are many blessings that can come from Adoration, but there is a much more important reason. He deserves it!”
There was a function going on at the Church which resulted in several people going in and out of the Chapel. Yes, this did cause distraction, but that is not what caused the uncalled for anger. At first, I did thank God for allowing so many to stop in to see His Son, but then it became about “me” and not about “Him”.
The anger started with people outside the Chapel standing right next to the “Quiet” sign, let’s just say, not being quiet. At best, this should have been an irritation, but no, I let it go to anger. It progressed badly. You see, people have a habit of busting in and out of the Chapel door instead of opening it quietly and not letting it slam when closing. Some of the regulars do it every time, and yes, they did it last night. The new people, I tried to dismiss it by thinking, they did not realize the door would be that noisy. But when some of the same people came in 3 or 4 times and made no effort – my anger rose. It rose not because they were being irreverent (they weren’t), but because I resented their lack of consideration for ME. How dare they distract me from praying? How dare they pop in and out as if there was no one else there? The day, up to this point, had not gone as I had planned/hoped. I had just come through 3 days of total spiritual darkness and wanted MY time with Jesus!
When reflecting on all of this, I was overwhelmed and deeply ashamed. These good and faithful Catholics were there for a function that was solely about God, about His Holy Spirit, about Jesus, about living the Faith! They were there to praise Him, worship Him, be renewed by Him. Maybe if I had been as focused on Him, I would have received the blessings for their exuberance instead of offending my Lord by not only getting angry, but making it about me.
Lord, please let me always put You first, others second, and me last for Your honor, Your Glory, Your praise!
blessedadorer 
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Oh my I needed to see this. I actually googled “angry in adoration” today WHILE SITTING IN ADORATION. I got to adoration already angry with myself (and one other so needed something from me before leaving home). So I arrived late and angry about that. Then I saw that the Chapel had a lot of people and the 2 ladies who always pray what sounds like the Holy Rosary in a LOUD WHISPER were praying. I couldn’t tune them out. The chapel is small. And I’d forgotten my ear buds. So I was miffed at those 2 women, and wanted to turn around and glare at them but didn’t. Then I was miffed at myself for my lack of charity. And I’d just been to Confession 3 days ago and had felt good. All I wanted (here’s the other selfish part) every week was to go to Adoration and have QUIET and talk to Jesus, but that hasn’t been possible for months. I have even gone to fulfill an obligation and its likely because I knew that those ladies would be there praying loudly I had no idea that anyone else had felt the way I have been feeling. Please pray for me to want to share Jesus and to not get angry at others. As you wrote, HE deserves that.
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Thank you for sharing! I know exactly how you feel. When we had perpetual adoration, I always went in the middle of the night so that no one else would be there. Since covid, none of the churches are truly perpetual, but one starts at 5:00 a.m.. So I’m scheduled for 5:00 a.m. on Saturdays so that 99.9% of the time I am alone.😁 Definitely will keep you in my prayers. Please keep me in yours.
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