Pray for me this Sunday Please

I debated sharing this, but I just need to get this out.

I was so looking forward to Sunday.  I was born on a Sunday and so every time my birthday falls on that day of the week, I feel it is an extra blessed day.  This year was supposed to be extra special and blessed because, even though it happened only 5 years ago thanks to leap year, I have grown so much spiritually in that time period. Even better, it is Good Shepherd Sunday.

 I have spent the majority of the day on each of my birthdays in the past 4 yrs in Adoration.  This year, I had intended on participating in at least 3 Masses (hearing each of our Priests’ Homilies and receiving Him at least twice).  Plus, I planned on a 24-hour Adoration in His Holy Presence.

Almost none of that will happen now.  I may be able to spend some time in His Presence at Holy Rosary, but I cannot participate in Holy Mass nor receive the greatest Gift that anyone could ask for.  I am heartbroken.  I have been looking forward to this since last year when I realized what a special day it would be.

Before you say it – watching Holy Mass on- line (especially when the ones that mean the most to me are not even truly live) and praying from home is NOT even close to the same.  When I left Holy Rosary Wednesday, after praying Divine Mercy outside St. Louis, I asked Him why I was not like so many of His Faithful that seemed to be “satisfied” and some even fulfilled by on-line Mass and Spiritual Communion.  This is the scenario that was laid on my heart:

My most favorite earthly food is a Hot Fudge Sundae.  Spiritual Communion is like being able to see and smell the Sundae, but only being able to remember the taste of it.  On-Line Mass is the same, but even more disheartening.  With on-line Mass, others have their spoons out and are dipping into the Sundae.  I have to watch them eating it while I can only remember the privilege of doing so; remembering the total delight and fulfillment I experienced when I too could dip into that “Sundae”.

So, I ask that you pray for me this Sunday.   What was supposed to be one of the best days I have had in a very long time, will be one of the saddest days of my life.  I will do my best to be grateful to be able to see and smell my Heavenly “Hot Fudge Sundae”, but I would give anything to be able to taste Him!