One Week from Tomorrow!

Someone just asked me if I could cover their Adoration on May 3. I had not realized that the date was only a week away. On that date, I will be 60 years old.

I never thought I would make it to this age for a myriad of reasons. But not in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine that I would be so joyful, blissful, at peace, content, and so in love especially after it was getting obvious that I would never marry. How could my life be worth anything? How could my life be fulfilled with no husband and, in particular, no children? How could I be anything other than a “lonely career woman”? How could I even please God when I was so on my own – so alone? How could just working ever satisfy serving Him?

In other blogs, I related how I thought this was a call for me to re-discern Sisterhood, how 15 yrs ago,I could find no Orders who accepted women over 40, how He called me to take the buy-out, how the timing was perfect to care for my mother her last few years, how I did find an Order after she died, and how that Order was not right for me. So I just expressed to the Lord that I was confused and just did not know how to serve Him.

But God’s plan (even when He had to adjust it because I abandoned Him for so long) is the “perfect” plan. He increased my Adoration time, increased my devotion to the Blessed Mother, he increased my Spirituality, increased my vulnerability and in doing so, increased my trust in Him.

He brought people in my life that I love more than I could ever describe. He showed me that the love I had been seeking all these years was HIS LOVE. That these “people” embrace and personify HIS LOVE and through them I have learned to love HIM! A true love. An honest love. A total and complete consuming love! Beyond that, I not only love Him and them, but I have learned what it means to love EVERYONE unconditionally! I know what it means when I hear God is Love!

The thing about Love is that He affects every aspect of your life. You actually LIVE when Love is in your life. Nothing can disturb you for more than a minute. You learn, you grow, you teach, you surrender!

It is a week away, and we are not assured of tomorrow. Fr. J reminded us the other day that we need to be prepared for anything, good and bad, so as not to be distracted from His Love. One thing I know, no matter what, because of His Mercy, His Love, His Sacrifice, on May 3, 2019, I will be with my Love.