Give Me More, Lord!

So many thoughts, so many lessons, so many blessings.   That is what was going through my head on the way home from Adoration just now.  It has been a Spirit filled 3 days.  I am not sure where to begin, but I guess the Holy Spirit is as good as any place 🙂

I do not know if our Lord will ever call me to be truly “charasmatic”.  I am just a much more quiet and contemplative worshiper.  But what I have learned is that every aspect, every movement, every ministry within the Catholic Church has something to offer everyone.  Whether you embrace the fullness of each is up to your individual calling.

For me, I have been totally immersed in Eucharistic Adoration (surprise, surprise), but I am gaining so much from my Charismatic friends also.  At first, it was just being around those who are involved in the movement.  I witnessed their joy, their confidence, and often their peace.  I wanted to understand, but was extremely hesitant because of my first encounter at a Charismatic Prayer session in college.

But I prayed on it.   I have now been to 2 Charismatic Prayer Sessions and I can honestly say, I am much better off as a result.  The most surprising thing to me was the “revelations” that the members shared while praying over me.  I understood exactly and knew it truly had to be the Holy Spirit.  Now, as with every situation involving humans, there was one who probably didn’t really get a message or vision, but felt compelled to share what she thought I neeeded to hear (all with good intentions), but it was easy to identify and served to validate the others (which now that I think about that aspect, maybe her message was not the words of the Holy Spirit but still was the result of her responding to the Holy Spirit).

The messages brought me to tears as I felt the Love of God pouring into me through them and through their words.  I also got to understand what is meant by one person getting the message and others needing to interpret it.  One member described what they were seeing, but exclaimed they did not know what it meant.  Another member immediately spoke up with the interpretation.  That interpretation hit the mark.  I should say that only one of the group knew me before and even she does not know me other than seeing me around the Church and in Adoration.  I cannot adequately explain in a blog the messages they shared and how they were such a gift.  That is the type of thing for talking about with friends versus writing in a blog, but they have had a powerful impact on me and on my prayers.

As I said at the start, I do not know if I will ever fully embrace the Charasmatic movement, but I have learned never to say never because I do not know what God has planned for me.  So, yes, I will continue to attend the Prayer Sessions for now because I want to accept all that He is offering to me and all that will make me a better servant!  Give me more, Lord!