The Chapel doors had no more closed behind Your adorer leaving from his time with You, when my tears began to flow. Once again, I am alone in Your Presence and Your Love overwhelms me. The tears of joy and gratefulness, turn to tears of humility. You have given me so much, especially in these last few months. You have blessed me with loving, faithful, and encouraging friends. You have provided our Parish with such a holy, inspiring, loving, and strong leader and added 2 amazing Priests to work with him. You have opened so many doors to grow my Faith and knowledge of You and Your Will. Lord, I am so unworthy.
For 2 hours, my tears flowed and when I tried to gain control as I had not “prayed and adored”, You let me know, as only You can, that You accepted my tears as my prayer.
As I leave Incarnation on my way back to You at my Parish, I contemplate how blessed Memphis is to have multiple locations to come and adore You, the news of Las Vegas blares on the radio. Once again, the tears flow, this time of sadness and fear. We have strayed so far from You that hate has overtaken us. As I enter St. Louis, I fall on my knees in front of You in the Tabernacle and again I cry and beg your forgiveness; forgiveness for all the times I remained silent, forgiveness for the times that I did not act in charity and love, forgiveness for my selfishness and self-centeredness, forgiveness for our disobedience, forgiveness for our country.
As others begin to arrive, You allow my tears to momentarily stop so as not to draw attention, and I begin my prayers of preparation for Holy Mass. As I am reflecting on the Readings, the tears begin again. Today, the feast of our Guardian Angels, the name of the Cathedral in the very city so great a tragedy occurred, reminded me that You provide everything we need, but we fail to rely on You. It was not enough for You, Father, to create us to share Your Love AND sacrifice Your Only Son; it was not enough for You, Jesus, to redeem us with Your Life; it was not enough for You, Holy Spirit, to offer us every spiritual need and gift to claim our salvation, You, oh Blessed Trinity, gave each and every one of us our own protector and support. Yet, we fail to recognize and accept You and Your gifts.
As we begin the prayers of Holy Mass, I fight back the tears to no avail. The beauty, the hope, the realization of Your Love in the celebration of Your Sacrifice is too much to ignore. After offering thanksgiving for our Church, Priests, and, especially, Your Holy Eucharist, I leave to return home, but You had more to offer. You called me back to Your Presence and allowed me to spend even more time with You – and the tears continued to flow. I did not want to leave You, but then You gently lead me out, sent me home, and granted me some grace-filled rest.
I awakened and once again, the tears began to flow. As I read the posts shared by good friends, I shed tears of joy. As I read the posts of those who are against You, I shed tears of sadness. As I read posts of Your faithful, especially Your Priests and others who are not afraid to declare Your Love, I shed tears of hope.
As the day draws to a close, the tears have stopped for now. But I just wanted to say Thank You, for Your Love and my day of tears.
blessedadorer 
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